10-YEAR-OLD GIRL COMMITS SUICIDE TO MAKE HER MOTHER HAPPY.
She left a letter before committing suicide that produces an indescribable feeling.
“Dear saint kings, I only want to ask of you that my mother be the happiest mother in the world after I am no longer here, as I have been a nuisance and a hardship in her life ever since I was born and I was the reason why my father left home. I want my mother to be at peace and not work too much, the best gift that I can ask for is her happiness. I hope that one day you will remember me and that in heaven at last you will embrace me. I believe that the best gift of the kings is for me to take my life. You always said you wished I had never been born. I love you very much, Mummy, I know that the kings don’t exist but I give you this great gift.”
I want to share this unpleasant piece of news from 8th January 2019, broadcast on Telecinco, expanding on a reflection based on an idea that I have been sharing in Conscious School® classes, since it has a message for all mothers and fathers, and for those who are committing suicide in many ways even if they are not taking their lives.
Having children is having on our hands – as parents – the innocence of our children who are ready and willing to believe anything we say. Children have no option but to believe us unconditionally because they haven’t been designed not to believe their biological parents. It is like having a blank sheet of paper on which the parents write the script of what the children are going to be and do. The word “joy” comes from the word “said”; a joyful person is someone to whom lovely things have been said. Being unhappy means carrying in our minds the burden of many destructive words about ourselves.
Innocence is the most unconscious part of consciousness. Innocence is consciousness trying to learn to move within the material human plane in relation to others and the external. Innocence is not expert in the art of perceiving and for this reason it has no option other than to feel responsible for everything that happens and is produced on the outside. Due to this, at some point, it feels responsible for everything. This is something that we must comprehend.
All children are innocent, and because of this they are capable of feeling guilty in any given moment when faced with anything that is said or done to them. Human children are devoid of protection against the avalanche of projections that come their way, above all from the mother who is the closest person to the child from the beginning. For this reason, children are so likely to produce all kinds of traumas based on interpretations they make from what their parents say or what they understand from what is said, from how they are looked at and what they are made to believe. This is the case, as one of some many traumatic examples, of abused, abandoned and humiliated children who come to the erroneous conclusion that they were the cause of this abuse, abandonment and humiliation, and thus they perpetuate a life of abuse, abandonment and humiliation simply because they have come to believe that this is what they deserve. The phenomenon happens because innocence is programmed to absolve everyone else of everything and take responsibility itself for everything because it doesn’t want rejection, it wants to integrate; for this reason innocence prefers to self-blame rather than blame others, because its mission is to not break the bond with others and to maintain harmony with the outside since this is the place in which it lives, where it is adapting and thus where it wishes to avoid conflict. But it is from this unconscious attitude that fear of rejection is produced which then accompanies us for the rest of our lives. This is why we live our lives prostituting ourselves in order to be accepted, and avoiding rejection at any price. This is an adapted child who has modified themselves to integrate with the outside, against themselves, taking on all responsibility.
The young child who doesn’t yet have defence mechanisms is innocent and this gives power to others to do what they want with the child. It happens in this same way to many people who are supposedly fully grown but who are still living in this phase of unconditional innocence (unconsciously); from this original wound they keep drawing conclusions about themselves because they haven’t healed the fundamental and inevitable trauma that unconditional innocence produces.
Until a human being goes through the experience of forgiveness, they will be living in some way in this phase of being a wounded and defenceless child. Because they haven’t yet comprehended that there is no such thing as guilt, error and wrong-doing. This is one of the causes of global suicide which is supressed in humanity because who actually take their lives for this cause are a minority, whereas the majority keep living like dead people with an open wound, creating a crappy life from this unhealed trauma, choosing a thousand different ways to kill themselves while remaining alive.
For this reason, I will take advantage of this opportunity to ask parents that we please be mindful of everything that we say in intimacy when we are with our children, and that all humans dare to go through the process of forgiveness that is so badly needed for us to reconcile ourselves with life, with other people and with existence. Here we have the opportunity to achieve a great feat: to be unconsciously innocent of our childhood, to go on to feel like guilty people, to in the end be able to open ourselves up to forgiveness and recovering our innocence from a place of consciousness. It is here that, for the first time, peace and harmony are born.
Forgiveness is a healing comprehension on an elevated level of vibration. It is not something ridiculous that has you get on your knees in front of your children and beg their forgiveness fo what you have said to them and for having damaged their innocence.
Alberto José Varela
ORIGINAL NEWS ARTICLE:
Mexican society finds itself emotionally moved by an occurrence that took place on the ‘day of kings’ in the town of Cosío de Aguascalientes, when a 10 year-old child hung herself in her home. Before taking her own life, the little girl left a heart-breaking letter to her mother.
“Dear saint kings, I only want to ask of you that my mother be the happiest mother in the world, after I am no longer here, as I have a nuisance and a hardship in her life ever since I was born and I was the reason why my father left home.
I want my mother to be at peace and not work too much, the best gift that I can ask for is her happiness.
I hope that one day you will remember me and that in heaven at last you will embrace me. I believe that the best gift of the kings is for me to take my life. You always said you wished I had never been born. I love you very much, Mummy, I know that the kings don’t exist but I give you this great gift.”
The contents of the letter, picked up by Televisa, give us a glimpse of the feeling of guilt that the child felt in that the only thing she wants is for her mother to be happy.
The Mexican authorities have opened an investigation surrounding the mother of the child but for the moment her identity is unknown as it was the girl’s aunt who was present to carry out the necessary identifications.
The General Directorate of Expert Investigation confirmed that the cause of death of the minor was suffocation by hanging.