LOSING HEART IS THE EPICENTER OF THE DISTRUST EARTHQUAKE
How can we regain lost trust and reopen the heart?
Those of us who are in a process of inner evolution will sooner or later encounter this harsh reality: that at some point in our life we have closed our heart, and then we have created a system that fills us with mistrust that protects that decision.
DISTRUST PROVIDES INSURANCE FOR THE PERMANENCE OF THE LOST HEART AND DESPAIR
Those of us who have had therapy know that as a result of a series of traumatic events, we were scarred and wounded to such an extent that the only thing we could do to not suffer further was to close ourselves. Closing the heart means to create the illusion of ceasing to feel or suffer (which is impossible) or not allowing events or people to make us feel pain (another lie that we believe in order to survive in the hope that nothing and no-one will harm us). This armour gives us a feeling of protection from what can happen to us in life.
Each person decides what to close more or less unconsciously and without thinking too much. For example: to close off from life, love, relationships, others, enjoyment, the sense of dignity, men, women , human beings, trust. Some close themselves to everything. Others choose selectively what they want to close themselves to, but what they do not know is that in closing something, even if it’s just one thing that I mentioned earlier, they are closing themselves off consistently to many experiences that provide peace, happiness and fulfilment. When the heart closes, the possibility of trust is completely ruled out.
Every thing – supposedly negative or dangerous – to which we close ourselves has its suppressed positive counterpart. When we resist a painful experience we resist another pleasurable experience; for every thing we sacrifice we are killing something that would fulfil us. An example: those who close themselves to trust must acquire distrust as a system of life. Mistrust is a psycho-emotional earthquake that produces spiritual chaos and disconnection from the essence. This vital disorder prevents the person from flowing, accepting, having gratitude, loving or surrendering completely. Those who close themselves believe that they benefit from avoiding distressing situations. But inadvertently they are predisposing themselves to perpetuating more and more intense situations that caused the closure in the first place. This causes more pain and gives more reasons to carry on keeping the heart closed.
Obviously this is the nucleus of conditioning. So we can not face this fundamental life situation devoid of a minimum level of consciousness, because if not mistrust will create new, more stubborn layers to further protect the person who has decided to close themselves off. For those of us who are faced with such situations with business associates, romantic partners, study companions or co-workers, relatives or collaborators of the same organization or movement, we know that it is vital to cleanse the virus of distrust in order to work with inner transformation. Most people who attend our retreats come with this core of mistrust that affects their entire lives. Nothing can be done to evolve with mistrust because mistrust is the guarantee of survival of the conditioning that rules all limitations. There is no possibility of developing potential without trust. All changes, work or efforts we make from the outside will never dissolve the hard core of mistrust inside. The only thing that can be done is to camouflage or hide that inner hardness. Only a conscious decision to leave that place of power that fosters distrust can lead to an inner transformation.
A person who has lived all their life in a state of mistrust, if they were to decide to trust they would have to finish with themselves. They would not be able to remain the same. Many people living in mistrust suddenly argue that they have reason to distrust, which is a lie, THEY NEVER HAVE TRUSTED, they have only been speculating to find some reason to distrust and attribute their own distrust to external factors. Sometimes the arguments are so convincing that many believe them. But those who fall into the same belief that there are external reasons to distrust do so because they harbour that very core of mistrust themselves. This is when the different levels of distrust that could be in a group of people are manifested.
The only antidote I have seen that works for mistrust is awakened conciousness. Faced with it there is no mistrust that can further deepen or reinforce itself with its own impotence. Without even being awakened person, it will be more than enough to annihilate any core of mistrust that can be manifested. An awakened being never distrusts, they can not because the awakening is the recovery trust itself. It is the healing of the soul that wants to reconnect with the whole and with all people. It is RECONCILIATION.
Distrust does not allow you to listen, it does not let you be free, it does not support you in deciding the direction of your heart. It fills you with justifications, it only connects you with hate so that you can express it in a thousand different ways around you, it confines you to suffering, it makes you believe that change is not possible, it makes you sceptical, a cowardly seeker who never wants to find anything that will make them regain their trust, but rather make you obsessively find more and more reasons to distrust.
Mistrust is caught out by consciousness. The lost heart is cornered. Despair does not know what to do. When distrust is exposed to the consciousness of people who can see the origin and nature of the disaster that has been created, is when a master blow to the core of the blockage happens.
MANY PEOPLE, HOWEVER MUCH THEY WORK ON THEMSELVES, IF THEY DO NOT DISMANTLE THE CORE OF DISTRUST, THEY WILL ONLY BE ABLE TO LIVE DECEIVING THEMSELVES, SUFFERING INSIDE, BUT SHOWING ON THE OUTSIDE THAT THEY ARE MOVING FORWARD. THIS IS THE STAGNATION THAT I MYSELF REVEAL IN MANY PEOPLE, BE THEY PARTICIPANTS OR FACILITATORS, SHAMANS, GUIDES OR THERAPISTS, TRAPPED IN TIME AND SPACE, AT THE TIME WHEN THE EARTHQUAKE HAPPENED, THAT IS WHERE DISTRUST WAS BORN AND THE POSSIBILITY OF EVOLUTION HAS BECOME TRAPPED. THE WOUND IS NOT YET HEALED.
What kind of life has distrust given you? Have you enjoyed it? Have you been happy? Have you fulfilled your potential? Is it all you have known? Does it give you supposed security and tranquillity?
So… Why not leave behind a decision that was made so many years ago and that has served you nothing more than to continue suffering? Perhaps it has served as your supposed protection, to avenge yourself, to project anger, to punish others for what they did to you … How long are you going to carry on with the same attitude?
And if you want to continue distrusting, the world is full of places, organizations, families and opportunities for you to maintain and refine your distrust. But I do not advise you to go to any place or event that is based on trust, because sooner or later you will expose yourself to the hardest confrontation of your life. Finding yourself face to face with someone that trusts can be the end of your failed attempts to maintain trust.
What can happen to you if you trust? What kind of life is waiting for you from the moment you trust again?
You have never been suspicious, every child trusts because they are born that way, trust is what will lead you through the most wonderful experiences of life; perhaps you mistrust, it dwells in you like a protective virus. Trust is an essential value that can only be blocked temporarily, it can be defeated so that it does not work in life, but life itself is designed to dissolve mistrust, and those who do not give in to this dissolution have to lock themselves up in a coffin.
When I was a little boy I went to several funeral parlours, I loved to watch when they closed the coffin, because before closing it with the wooden lid they had to seal the metal inner lid with lead solder to prevent oxygen from entering to keep the corpse from rotting.
Perhaps that is the situation of those who have decided to distrust, are so closed that nothing and nobody can enter the interior. You will avoid rotting, but you are a corpse.
Harsh words define the situations of many people, but I do not see any other way of a dead person making a decision to resuscitate if they are not able to understand why they are in there, agonizing, suffering, running away from life. My words hammer hard blows, because I trust that everyone who decided to distrust, did so for something but will not do so forever.
Perhaps the time has come for you to TRUST AGAIN.
Alberto José Varela
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